Found myself in Quarantine

2020 was quite a rollercoaster. Everything was fine until it wasn’t. I was in a pretty ok relationship until it wasn’t. I was able to manage my stress until I wasn’t.

In June It all came tumbling down. The childhood trauma I had been holding at bay washed over me and I was faced with a choice: Handle my issues or forever been ruled by them. I made the right choice. I disconnected from everything. Live streaming, social media, friends. I created a 5 month deep dive in Childhood Developmental trauma rehabilitation for myself. It included 10 hours a day of books, an hour of therapy, a group of women to confide in, and a battle buddy. Physically I cleansed my diet and started walking/running 5-10 miles a day. It was much needed in that “Eat Pray Love” kind of way. I was focused and faced my darkest demons and vowed to not repeat the patterns of my past or my parents. And… It worked.

People said it was too much, people said I needed to take it easy… but I’m not like normal people. I’ve never been good at moderating, so I dove in headfirst and it worked. On the last day of my deep dive therapy session, I met my husband. We clicked immediately and since that day my life has been remarkable. With Jamison, I’m able to finally be supported by and supportive of a love I never thought I would share. Love forged from honesty & respect. Love without ego, and continuously leaning into one another. Love without malintent and focused on Monogamy… something I thought might have been just a fairytale.

And he has gone above and beyond in my care… he has rescued this very website from the tendrils that stole it from me over 13 years ago.

So, this post… this very first post is dedicated to my husband, Jamison Stone. Game Developer & Sci-Fi Fantasy Author; loving husband and father.

As this is the first post it’s probably good I explain what you can expect from these blog posts. Honesty. Lifestyle. Game Master thoughts. Fitness journey & Psychology/Trauma recovery.

Thanks, everyone for checking this out! If you want to keep in touch click HERE to join me in my discord. It’s my little happy corner on the internet.

Warmth and Light,

Satine